Hainrihi's Discoveries

From Pixabay

From Pixabay

From Pixabay

I wrote this article for a testing assignment and I want to share my thoughts on getting ninongs and ninangs (godparents) for baptism, which is very important in a child's life. I already posted this before here but I want to post it again because I just attended the baptism of the daughter of two of my college close friends, Kharlo and Honey.  I want to emphasize more the importance of picking the right godparents for your child.

The crying bride walking towards her parents

The bride and groom saying their vows

You may kiss the bride! :)

The couple in the dinner reception

July is coming to an end, while August is coming in. Half a year has passed and, somehow, I feel not good about it as well as not satisfied with my life...yet. Aside from resigning from a tiring job, and getting a new one after around 2 months, nothing BIG has happened yet that would at least satisfy me.

I'm supposed to write something this week about some reviews of movies and books since I just finished watching and reading some new ones. But due to some events that I will never forget, this entry will just be short and about the week.

I went into an accident that involved some skin in my feet being scraped off (even the inner skin), and I can't walk well and am in pain right now. I have to go through everyday medication and cleaning of the wound that it gets the energy out of my body. So, even if I had more than 7 hours of sleep, I am still quite tired.

Then my 1st cousin died yesterday, and I'm still not recovering from the accident that I had. He was one of my cousins whom I am close to and he was just 29 years old. It's still hard to register the events that had happened this week, and I'm still having a hard time comprehending them and asking why they are all happening.

The only things keeping me occupied is watching anime, sleeping and writing (though I'm also having hard time here because I'm not in the mood and have lost a bit of an inspiration to write). I know I'll be realizing a lot of things regarding the events that had happened this week, and maybe I'll be able to write about them soon. Writing has been my therapy the past years and it gives me relief once I have written about something. But, for now, I can only write about a personal entry.

I hope all goes well in the end.

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

One of the few things that give me hope for our country is CHILDREN.